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What would you think if I told you that tomorrow you were going to wake up and be responsible for two teenagers and two toddlers, all at the same time, all under the same roof? Nuts? Perhaps that would have been my response too, until I lived it. Combing Anthony's children with mine has been one of … [Read more...]

Ditch the doubt


It's been awhile since I last posted. That could mean that things are so bad I couldn't possibly share them with you in fear of making you sympathetically suicidal. Or it could mean that things are so good I'm way too busy being awesome to sit down and write. Or it could mean that my life and … [Read more...]

A writer is a writer and I’m a writer


I've lived on this Earth for 31 years and I don't know who I am. I am absolutely certain that I am a daughter of God but besides that it's kind of a blur. I've always lived in a fog and because I've been forced to put my headlights on these last few months I'm slowly starting to see things. I'm … [Read more...]

Are dragons eternal too?


Daniel, my eternal, I love you an immeasurable amount. It's been three months to the day since we last touched. There are still moments when I crave you deeply. I feel like a dragon coveting gold with this dark and fierce desire. Your forehead, your arms, your hands, your lips, every single part of … [Read more...]

The last place I sat


Today while my kids where being oohed and aahed over at someone else's house I got out and ran errands because running errands is a lot easier sans kids. On my way back home I got stuck in traffic. I could see it, stuck there in traffic. I could see the sign. I could see the building. It was … [Read more...]

I just want to stay up


My emotions and mind go a thousand miles an hour. There is always something to think about. My to-do list is slowly getting smaller but there is still always something to be done. I have a newborn and a toddler. There is always a baby to care for. All these things exhaust me. But sometimes... I … [Read more...]

The day I buried my husband


I woke up on Saturday morning. Mornings are the hardest. It hits me all over again before I even open my tear stained emerald eyes. When my feet hit the floor my husband won't be there. He won't be sleeping in our warm bed. He won't be tending to one of our small children. He won't be in the … [Read more...]

Your husband has died


I like to write. It's therapeutic for me. I haven't been doing it much lately because my life was awesome. It was pretty much perfect. I didn't need any therapy. I was happy. Super happy. No major issues, no complaints. Just pure bliss and only tiny everyday problems (though pregnancy symptoms did … [Read more...]

Totally Worth It


Sometimes I can't help but hug her as tight as possible as tears fall down my checks and I say another sincere prayer of gratitude. Every crappy moment I had to go through those 7 years of TTC followed by those 6 solid months of vomiting can't even begin to compare to the joy and light this … [Read more...]

The dress

color palette | gold or blue dress |

If you were on the internet last night you will know of the white and gold OR blue and black dress. My sister was the first one that introduced me to it and it drove me nuts. For her and my husband it was always white and gold. For my mom it was always blue and black. My cousin saw blue and gold. … [Read more...]